Is it normal and I should just have a few more to see how I go before investing 1000s on something I might not love?
1) Do not pay anything upfront in aviation. Never.
2) Your description matches my first lessons 100%. One PPL licence and IR(R) rating later I know I would have regretted deeply, had I turned back.
3) I know I'm not "normal" i.e. I will always be different from Mavericks and Gooses (Geese?
) of tomorrow, who will be around, but guess what? I do what I like and I don't care...
Definitely worth going if part of you wants to go. If it proves too hard, there is always time to turn back, but at least you will have tried and had new experience.
All the best,
/h88