David, with all due respect, you sound like a 6 year old who has become bored of his Christmas present.
You can afford to do some GA in your spare time if you want to do some aeros.
I would advise you to be less obsessed with yourself and take a look around. Of course it's only a job. Everyone has a job and most people's jobs are crap but it pays the bills. We are lucky enough to have a bloody good one.
