I have stage 2 scheduled for the end of June. I honestly dont know how I did the previous stages… I am a bad judge of myself, but I guess I did alright so to stay in the game.
My next few posts could contain ecstatic or heartbreaking news; I have parts of me telling myself it will be a piece of cake and everything will be fine, but the bipolar end of him saying it will be too good of a truth for me to succeed.
When I applied earlier this year I thought this will just be a game and I will fail on EACH AND EVERY level until… if I can… stumble my way into CX cadet. But no, I cannot believe myself that I have made it this far. I felt if I am to fail now everything about me will just breakdown, I am sandwiched between two inevitable possibilities that are EQUALLY UNBELIEVABLE
As a result of that I am just continuously bulking my knowledge in this area, but there is something about this mentality that I fear will backfire on me.