Up and down and not just when doing my circuits
I have a bit of an 'artistic temprament', meaning that I am used to quite dramatic ups and downs of mood lasting two or three days a go. None of this is out of the ordinary, but I do worry about the difference in the quality of my flying depending on the mood.
My last lesson, I came straight from work, having spent a day interacting with people and turned up feeling confident, in control and generally buoyant and got so many approving mumbles from my right that I ended up feeling pretty cocky. Today, after 3 days spent mainly at home, not getting any exercise and trying to get some study done, I felt shy and slow (and pre-menstrual, it must be admitted!!). I was totally unable to find the energy to be proactive in my flying even when I was sure of what I was doing, and this caused me to sink even further until I actually found I had tears in my eyes on the journey home - totally out of place.
Does anyone know what I mean, or is my suspicion (based on observation) that all other pilots are unabashed extroverts true? How did others deal with it? After all, it's no good simply not flying when you don't think you're in the right mood, although I suppose as the learning curve levels out and the skills become more natural the effect of these kinds of factors is less marked. I am still in the early stages of training.
Time to stop soul-searching and take me and my portable Cbs to bed I feel...