There are hundreds in the same boat as you (as if you need reminding) and many of them have travelled for months on end all over the world looking for opportunities. Forgive me if I've misunderstood something but seems you've narrowed your search only to Ireland (having failed RYR twice and hoping for a third go). Sounds to me (based on what you have said so far), you haven't been very flexible so far and are only now beginning to realise it. Asia/M.E want experienced people. No way in hell you will gain any kind of junior level employment before a local. 35 years old, 300 hours does not put you in the best of standings especially if you've also ruled out a SSTR and P2F. Sorry but my advice would be to call it a day unless you're prepared to change all the above and even then this career will not come before you've spent another €50-70k. Sad state of affairs I know.