sascha410
You can talk the talk lad but at the end of the day ain't nobody gona have self pity on you here!
Weither you paid for the 3 TR with your own money or lottery money that's for you to keep! Bottom line is it appeared you wanted the easy way but it costed you more and it will continue to.
Like what other members said, you would have been better off gaining valuable experience and building your hours through GA or instructing (BUT do not instruct because you want to build hrs). Instruct because you want to pass valuable knowledge and for your students to better than you.
My take is you either put up with what you are currently doing or stop and become a politician!