Steve
I have nothing but praise for your decisions all I am
Saying I cannot say I have flown in the same way! In 30 years of flying I have problem flights which stick out failures and weather situations which stick out!
99% of the flights are not challenging but I would lie if I avoided talking of some which were!
7 of my friends some far better than me have been killed in often the easier flights by a silly mistake so what can I say ? Good guardian angel? But certainly not a Sky God but maybe different to you! Your attitude is far from wrong
Pace