"Very shortly, you and AA will be in bankruptcy, and won't have anyone to blame but yourselves."
B767300ER, I take it you blame employees for the hard times at AA rather than the economy, 911, management, and now the war. Now you are apparently also bringing a safety issue into the fray.
I can't remember if it was you or not, but not too long ago another poster that appeared to be overwhelmed by events was on the attack. There are agencies that help folks such as yourself that obviously need help with dealing with your current situation. I believe if you can't afford it, there is no cost. Time to get help. Events can overwhelm all of us, it is how we deal with adversity that shows our real character. Good luck.