Thank you for the advice. I think ultimately I understand that not following my dream is not going to do anyone any favors. I already have a career that helps put food on the table and spouse probably sees this "following the dream" to be a bit of being selfish, but not completely against it.
I understand once I were to get to the airliners and I were to to be reasonably competent risk goes down a lot. But the 40+ year old training equipment that we have in this region is a bit of risk probably. On the other hand it is what everyone who lives in this region has to deal with.
Besides, probably I would resent it too much if I gave the training up, so probably not be doing any good regarding the children.