Thank you Thomas.
Yes I did think to continue and hiding it...seems to be impossible or very difficult.
I read one day, the FAA allowing some anti depress medecine, and to be honest i was indeed thinking "and if I take some..." just some crazy thoughts when we want to find a solution. (im under jaa rules, but wanted to take medecines by internet)
Fortunately, i prefer to have support from friends, family and to talk to a professional than taking chemicals things...
But that's a good point you made... sometimes some thoughts cross our mind, to recover rapidly.
But, yes, we have to accept it, and not doing worse things (especially in this industry).
The most important thing i learn is to listen to body's signs. Seems easy but actually not at all... it could be very inscidious.