Thank you for your reply Gingernut
Yes, sure, it depends on me.
I think I have to be out a while... effectively...
The thing is, at this moment, i can not read an aviation book. Maybe my brain "asks me a break".
I plan to study another field and get another skill. And maybe, one day, I will miss flying (as career) and will go back.
For sure, i keep my licence so, it's not totally a lost.
A year out ? I suppose at least. But it depends on the carier too. I was thinking that it had been in a major, maybe things would have been different too.
As you said, I recognised all the signs, fortunately. Actually it was very difficult to go out, to buy a ticket etc; Because I could not even go out. Just stayed at my home. I had suddenly an agoraphobia symptoms and felt stressed to go out. I could not even eat...
Fortunately I forced myself a lot to do the first step.
Sometimes i have up and down but, things go better step by step.
Thanks again