Lucky you
Truckflyer, I'm also one of these "older" guys who tried (in vain, unfortunately) to start a new life as a commercial pilot in today's rather difficult aviation business.
Meanwhile I had to put my dream to rest and went back to my old job. All I can say is that if you managed to get to fly a jet for an airline, please don't complain. Given your age, I think you were extremely lucky.
Want to drop out? I'll gladly take the job and sit through whatever it takes.