Sam 17
Hello Sam 17
I have read your post with a very light heart. It shows what you are inside, a straight and professional man. I admire your honest but few of us can match what you have.
What I know is you've gain an invaluable experience just by making an attempt. You've offered yourself to the challenge. Only leaders do this. You have a drive and the ambition, no doubt about that and believe me you, this open admission might be a reflection that you were only not in the right state of mind when you made that application.
The essence of situations like these is drawing a line under by learning the lessons which quite clearly you seem to be a master at. I hope this does come over again in the autumn for this experience to shine you through.
With my best wishes, Sam - do not despair.