Some very good and valid thoughts here... Especially clunk1001. I kinda feel the same. I always anticipate and expect something to go tits up. I might even overthink which really kicks the "fun part" out of the whole experience. But now after getting my license and flying for a bit, I come to think I never really "loved it" like "darkroomsource" and "justanotherflyer". I don't feel romantic about it, I just like it. Especially certain parts of it. Like practicing all sorts of touch&go's and trying to do better one after the other. Or doing certain procedures...
But just like clunk1001, even when I don't feel like doing it anymore and when I lose the desire or even if something had happened (twice in the past 7 years, nothing too bad) for some crazy reason I keep coming back for more...