I,m sure you are very proffesional
First thing I,d like to know is your age, the second thing is your total flight hours, and finally the company in wich you are flying now.
I can see that this post was written by a stupid teen-aged "pilot".
Perhaps if you had a normal averaged common sense you would not have written so many stupid things.
Make a phone call to your biological father and try to have an appointment with the nearest child psychologist in your neigbourhood or company.
If you don,t understand my written english I can tell it to you via phone call.
In Spain we say: "AMIGO MIO ERES UN PERFECTO GILIPOLLAS, Y ESO QUE NO ENTRENAS..."