Black Magic
Home is home and all is familiar. Deciding to move somewhere else is based on many grounds and strictly peronal.
But - if such decision is made you need to understand that you are away from home und things are different maybe not even close to what you are used too.
Decisions kan be reverted and I guess the best for you is to go back to your homecountry and join the flagcarrier (if they will take you).
If you cannot go right now, wait until you can but stop posting your private unhappyness