EH
Sounds to me like your suffering from anxiety (I'm no expert)
Lots of pilots suffer , but not many will divulge information because its seen as a bit "airy-fairy"
Read a few books on the subject
(Panic attacks, Christine Ingham)
(Feel the fear and do it anyway, Susan Jeffers)
Cognitive behavioral therapy is another very helpful way.
After that ..... GET OUT THERE AND DO SOME SOLO !
