Thanks B2Vulcan,
I will keep on going. Did wonder about Barton though, spoke to a few people who are pilots and all of them said that if you can land at Barton you can land anywhere. Don't know if that is true. Could probably argue the other way that if you get too dispondent then that could have an adverse effect on everything else. I don't think it is the landing itself actually but the whole circuit and descent thing so like everyone has said maybe I am beating myself up too early
Good luck in your future flying and thanks for taking the time to comment