Siam, good on you for your honesty and good luck to you, in all sincerity.
However, you have now asked folk not to "rub it in" about your RAF history, which it now appears you are actually slightly embarrassed about. No need to be, others have tried and it hasn't gone exactly to plan and they've moved on.
Unfortunately, the aviation world is full of ex-military pilots who can, and will detect any whiff of 'BS', because, like it or not, they are experts in that environment.
One thing I would strongly advise is never to attempt to display your RAF wings badge in a commercial way (for no other reason that almost all others don't and so doing that makes you stand out "in a certain way", perhaps the total opposite of what you had envisaged).
