You seems so frustrated.No wonder A person sitting ideally after 5 years completing his CPL is ridiculous. But Dear think of those who has completed their CPL 10-12 years ago and still working in small professions/jobs........?? Life will go on buddy and should go on....!!! your oppurtunity will come. Dont get so disappointed.
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If you cant get into the cockpit do something else in Aviation.
Regards