I am sorry to hear that Jan,
Not sure why the engine Rev-ed up again, but it sure is a good idea to find your own faults in this incident. A lesser person would have blamed the engine controls and come home with their ego in tact. This has made you a better pilot though, I'm sure.
Lick your wounds, patch her up and fly her as soon as (practically) possible; that will get you passed this hangover!
###Ultra Long Hauler###