VIKKI:
You have so much of your life ahead of you! I know patience doesn't come easy to the young - but one day you will look back and it won't seem as bad as it does now
Getting the license is a great goal - but shouldn't be looked on as the end of the journey. In the end, you will fly as much as you can afford, especially while young and short of cash (almost by definition!) - this will be just as true before as after when you get your license.
Don't be depressed: be delighted that you are one of a few - especially at your age - with the ability, nouse and drive to have even 30 hours flying time to your credit, and the privelege of being able to see the world from above and to enjoy what flying you can, when you can!
Hope this helps...