"CallDept's" there's really only one person who truly knows what to do here & that's YOU:-)
I do however believe that flying for a living these days is no longer glamorous or even a well paid job for that matter & it's certainly not a secure career path anymore. You simply have to love the feeling that flying brings to put up with all the crap that goes with it, that's the one constant in this game, if you haven't got that then bail out now !
Anyway you've been around long enuf now in this game am sure deep down inside you know what you want to do it's just that some of us need a prod!
Good luck, you'll need it !
Wmk2