@Troy
Thanks. It helps a little knowing someone knows what I mean. I am a very positive woman and I know life must have better plans for me (which are already evolving), but every plane that flies over my house is still stinging a bit...
I don't think there is anything in my life that I was so determined to get (except residency maybe). And despite all the odds against me my motivation, will power and skills have always gotten me through. I find that the toughest to deal with. But, as said, I will approach life with renewed energy because this must be good for something.
And I'm sure...so it is for you.
Maybe we would have gotten bored after years behind the radar, who knows, haha :-)
Good luck to you with whatever it is!