Grow a pair, if you don't like it in FD, you can leave, pay the bond and go fly in lala land, where the rainbow ends.
If you wallue you live so much, and you think you are going to be shot down in Kandahar, then the remaining 20.000 us you owe is not a big deal. Or perhaps it is, so you deside to stay, but then fly the roster and stut the f... up, take it like a man and do your job. I am so tired of listening to this BS.
Life is a gamble, you did your bet on red, and the roulette came out black. Thats life, so if you are so unhappy with FD, please leave, get a repayment plan with the company, and take the next EK out of here.