This is getting quite existential
Well you have asked what is a profound question
Seriously, if you have been tied to spam cans then I can understand your feelings. Flying has far more to offer. It is very easy to say take up aerobatics or "go permit" without knowing your circumstances. Buying into anything aerobatic can be quite expensive both in capital and running costs, but there are things out there such as Tipsy Nippers which are cheap to buy and run and which are also fully aerobatic. Getting a share in something like a Jodel or older cub will be quite cheap (c £3,500 perhaps), cheap to run and reinvigorate your flying
if you have the capital in the first place and can find a suitable group.