well that has certainely given me some things to think about.
The 'bad things' were, too much secondary duty, not enough flying, in particular.
money or time away from home are irrelevant to me. i don't want to get to an age where i tink 'i wish i'd done that'
i think i'm gonna have to go for it, 'nothing to lose everything to gain'.
thanks all
'live the dream'