Well if it's any help, on my first solo I realized that for the first time in my life I could kill myself and there was nothing anyone could do to save me. It was down to me alone and boy did that make me feel scared!
Anyway, I got thru it and almost 10 years later I still get nervous every time I fly. Maybe that's why I have not (yet) had any unfortunate incidents?
Respect your fear, deal with it and keep going. It will be worth while.
Good luck