Sitting, It's not for me to explain your weird ramblings my tiny minded little weirdo!
May I suggest you re-read YOUR OWN quote and explain how in the first half of the quote you are "happy", "done well financially AND career wise", and be "grateful towards EK" yet not half an inch later expect us to "understand" how bad things have got in EK.
Now for anyone with an IQ greater than 3, that would score about a 9.0 on their weird****ometer
Like I said before, get a life!