Teddy ! You're welcome we do all have the same dream instead !
You mean you are afraid of being blacklisted , i think that is the right expression !
No worries, it is up to you to go for the opportunity , there were 10 months after you were not shortlisted right? Go to the opportunity and later if they ask you if you did the preselections before , don't lie to them tell them the truth !!!
Good luck !