Hey there !!
Nice reading, but I would try and think positive when flying instead of saying to yourself that you'll never be able to do this and that.
I didnt like the stalls in the beginning either, and for your first solo dont be surprised if you think s**t how do I get down again, that was my first thought at about 50ft after T/O but it's a wonderful feeling. Good Luck, keep going!!!!
Best Rgds
LGL