Seems to me like you've convinced yourself you're going to fail, and that it's somehow everybody else's fault.
There are jobs, and there are apprenticeships. Not many I'll grant you, and employers are very selective who they take. I'll lay bets they won't take losers who spend all their time whining about how hard done by they are.
Here's a simple multi choice question for you.
If at first you don't succeeed:
[a] give up and blame everyone else
[b] keep trying, do more research, ask for advice
[c] parachuting may not the the sport for you
