What an honest and amazing post... Man, I wish you all the best, hopefully something should come up soon
for you and all the other guys in the queue...
Me, just finished PPL, preparing to leave my daily job that is bringing me multiple thousands of pounds per month
(the job which I, of course, don't like, but which helped me save some cash for the training), and get my self on the way to ATPL.
At least, i won't have some loan to think about later...
I prefer doing it no matter what, rather then regreting later in my life for not at least trying....
cheers