I started reading the OP and thought 'Poor guy'. That must be horrible. All that effort, investment, then finally your big break and nerves let you down.
But then I read where you had proudly posted ...
Airline paid for us to study, I did not pay a cent
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And I thought, why are airlines still investing in unknown quantities at vast expense, when there are so many out of work experienced pilots out there? You aren't the right guy for the job. You got nerves facing a Piper. Then over that, you got nerves in the unfamiliar surroundings of an Airbus and again perform badly. What happens on a day when you get an emergency in your shiny Airbus and are faced with a new situation you aren't comfortable with? Do you turn to the other pilot and say "Sorry I'm nervous, I won't perform well"?
I wouldn't have bothered posting and then I read ...
But that was piper, a toy
Well I paid for my training myself. I had to really look long and hard for a job and consider myself very lucky to have one. I don't get nervous, and its a good job, because I sometimes fly with
like you who regularly try to kill me, in a Piper of all things.
You reminded me of the quote ...
"It is strange the way the ignorant and inexperienced so often and undeservedly succeed, when the informed and experienced fail" - Mark Twain
I now hope your flying doesn't improve, until your attitude has.
