Regle, whilst your personal situation is of course the most important aspect to consider, your clarity of description of the events to which you have borne witness is a quality which shouldn't be allowed to fade.
Do please reconsider - the thread will of course remain open if, as I'm sure many will hope, you decide to continue your unique discourse.
"I've started, so I'll finish", perhaps?
May I thank you for all that you have done.