You say you want to fly and that you are trying to resist the temptation to pay for a type rating and hours on type, which i take to mean that if needs be you can find some money. So why not become a flight instructor. I am aware that it is probably not possible to get full time employment as an instructor and in this era of type ratings and pay to fly it may not be highly regarded but if you were as persistent in pursuing a job as you have been so far you would surely be able to get a day or two a week somewhere. And if flying is your dream then simply being able to fly once or twice a week would certainly improve your outlook on life. Once you have an instructor rating, even if you never manage to gain a full time airline job you will always be able to fly even if you have to have a nine to five job that pays the bills.