If this is for real, and the April Fool Day factor had not occurred to me, the bit about your boyfriend knowing nothing doesnt really make sense. If this is causing you problems with employment, and you have undergone all this work on your body, deportment, voice etc etc why do you never talk about it. Are you ashamed about your past? Are you frightened he would leave you if he knew the truth? To share everything on pprune with anybody who cares to log on, but hide it from your partner seems bizarre at the very least and could be seen as deception by him when he does find out - and he will.