Pipergirl,
we have all had moments like this.Try and stay current, but if I were you i wouldn't rush to qualify because there is not much out there;aim to complete in about 9 months to a year.
Personally 3 months after being made redundant i am going to take a poor job,try and forget about flying until the end of the year and chill,i could chew my nails to the bone worrying about it.
Gorky, you didn't have a relative called manuel who worked in a guest house in the south west of england did you?