The Heff....
Young and foolise but I hope not as flying at altitude takes no prisoners...
Therefore I'm not keen to pay someone else to do a job that I can do myself, except that I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing, exactly.
Read your words very carefully again...
There has been written some good advice in this forum to assist you but your safety would and should be at the for-front.
Your car when it fails can be stopped by the kerb side your aircraft when it fails..........
My original training totalled six years and has never stopped to-date.
Fly safe and enjoy for ever.
TW