Hi David
don't be sad, load control is one of the most interesting activities in terms of ground handling. While it isn't easy to master, it's not an impossible job as long as you are organized, motivated and willing to learn. The manual loadsheet is a crucial part of the progress - if you understand how and why it works, especially in terms of underloads and the flight envelope, you will be well prepared to face the rest.
Being a Red Cap is always a good starting point for a load controller - if you already know the "how", it will be easier to understand the "why".
The best advice when going "on the job", is to try and be organized and remain one step ahead of everything. In terms of load control, a wrong predicition is always better than a late reaction.
