From reading your previous posts, you seem to have spent a lot of time trying to validate your decision to join CTC. You seem to be in deep denial. Let me spell it out for you as someone who has a little bit of inside information:
Hit the nail on the head here with regards to a lot of wannabes attitudes, including mine until recently. Denial of what really is happening is quite a common factor and one which FTOs thrive on. Lots of people go into training these days with the attitude that they'll have a saving grace, thrust upon them in the form of a job a few weeks after they're finished.
Nuh-uh.