More on the sex analogy...
When I did my first rotary solo, having got my PPL(A) a couple of years before, I felt like it was no big deal at all. Everyone was congratulating me, and I just wanted them to shut up so I could get on with some more flying. I asked a f/w and rotary pilot with about 50 years experience if I was odd to feel this way. He just pointed out that you can't lose your virginity twice.
Seriously, Thump, try not to make such a big deal of first solo. I did, first time around, and I had several times like you when something went wrong, until I was close to despair. Some people solo early, and then find their landings go to pot afterwards. You're getting the practice in now, so that's less likely to happen. It makes no difference in the long run. It doesn't mean you'll take more or less time to get your PPL, or that you'll be a better or worse pilot.
But I know how you feel, and I sympathise. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you for next time.
