I know the implications of integrated,
In your situation from previous posts, you don't. You wouldn't even get a loan without a large, mortgage-free house on which to secure it.
i believe its worth the risk of becoming forever in debt if i fail
You do not appear to have any concept of money and debt.
When I was 19 I wanted to be a world-famous rock guitarist. We can't have everything we want; I now content myself with the odd gig in a local pub.
Sorry if I'm sounding like your mother but you need a reality check here.
Cheers
Whirls