First of all, thank you for all good suggestion; I did not start this thread begging for sympatiy. I will not further comment on why I did not get eighter of the jobs. But I sure worked hard to get there.
What it all comes down to, in my case, I see fellow friends, not in the aviation business, have started to invest in nice apartments have good jobs. I’m stuck in a rat hole, and all my hard earned money goes towards renewal after renewal.
So this thread was a frustration act, so this year, I probably will let the renewal pass….