Knocked down, good on you for not throwing good money after bad, like buying a TR and some line hours, I am sure you could find a loved one who would put it on the house if you whinged and black mailed enough. I know your feeling very, very, very, very well, it is tough at the moment. V6gs advice is very good. You know why you decided to go down this route and if you wanted to then, I am sure you still want it now. I read on here something that stuck with me a few years back:
'Winners never quit and quitters never win'
Keep it in your mind.
To be as fair as one can be to the industry, it is going through the worst period in its history and the last 6 months (i.e. May to October) are the worst time to apply for pilot jobs in the Northern Hemisphere, even in a good year. Make sure you give yourself a fair test.
Abagnale, your words are unnecessary, I appreciate the tack you may have been taking (giving you the benefit of the doubt) but don't kick people when they are down, kick people when they do things like jump queues and ruin opportunities for others by being artificially cheaper.