samdajee, if you're looking for advice, at least do us the favour and write in intelligible English
most people here who have significant experience are not a member of the shorthand texting generation and actually value proper spelling and grammar, and looking at your ramblings, rightly so.
Also consider that what you post here might be your calling card for the first job, so it might not be too clever to present as one of the great unwashed..
Your predicament has been discussed at length here, have a poke around with the search function and then maybe ask some more specific questions.. the short answer is probably, do a degree or trade to have a backup/money earning capacity, or go all out and stack shelves until you land your first paying job.
