MagpiePedro , everyone has a 'brain in neutral' moment when flying , some get killed , some get a scare , some get fined and some get away scott free and keep it to themselves.
There will always be 'Sky Gods' who have never done wrong (never admit to it) who will put the boot in.
Keep critcising yourself and sharing , that's how we all learn.
I'll bet you will never be a sit back and relax PIC again , good lesson learned.