"ranks of the desperate impoverished wasted lives that make up aviation!"
Wow, I think you need help. PM me for some councelling advise if you want. In the meantime, I have around 5600 hours, mainly light twin but some medium turbine SD360(long time ago), and I'm off to fly a Cessna210 around the African bush for a few months. And I have a beautiful daughter, and it's a sunny day and I'm not hungry. Unlike some of you sceptical and depresssed ranters, I have a positive outlook on life and don't feel that the world owes me a living.