Having been through all the emotions, pros/cons and worrying about my age etc. for me it came down to the fact that if I did not start training towards being a commercial pilot I could guarantee that I wouldn't ever have a chance of becoming one.
If I do get my fATPL I will have a chance to become a commercial pilot however small that may be depending on the economic conditions at the time. The great thing about the GAPAN assessment day was that I was told by a real life training Captain that my chance could be better than I thought...
Thanks again to the actual commercial pliots on here that willingly give up their time to help us older wannabees - I really appreciate it
All the best to everyone.