Can somone professional (pilot?)plz console me
You might want to ask the crew of the plane you are flying on for their opinion. If it weren't safe do you really think they would be there? They do it not just once a year but often several times a day, several days a week. And they know much more about the airline and the state of the aircraft than the Unofficial Pprune Accident Investigation Board ever will.
I can understand your concern but accidents are so rare these days that you are talking about the difference between extremely safe and slightly more than extremely safe. Variations due to luck are probably more significant than the differences between airline. SR111, BA038 and dozens of other examples show that even unimpeachable carriers can have a bad day.
Enjoy the flight!